Its been a tough couple of months. trying to balance everything in my life has been a little tough. I think I figured it out though, and hope to blog more often. My goal is once or twice a week! I have so much to talk about! For now I will leave you with two pictures from the girls playing in the snow recently!
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They dance around with grace, no care in the world. They are free, and they are enjoying life. To be like them would be a blessing. They are blessing, a true gift from God.
As I watch them dance around the living room, I want to be like them. I want to forget all my worries, fears, and everything that is pulling me down. They are beautiful, twirling around. They are confident, they don't care what anyone thinks of them. I pray by the Grace of God that they will be like this for the rest of their life. That they won't let anyone pull them down. That they remain strong, confident women. That they show those with negativity the power of grace and that everyone is unique in their own way. They keep me afloat along with the one man who loves me unconditionally. These three are the perfect piece to my heart. They are my grace when I am down. Dance forever, love those who don't know what love is, lead them, and help them. No one can bring you down. I pray they continue to live their life through God's grace. STOP
It has been a very crazy two months! From traveling for both sad and happy occasions, to a hospital visit and an IV for 3 days.
Harly won herself a visit to the E.R. back in March on a Sunday. After 5 hours in the E.R., we went back to Nani's house. After a day of not eating, drinking, or peeing, she won an emergency trip to the doctors on Tuesday. She got an IV and we stayed there for 5 hours getting fluids and antibiotics. She came home with an IV in and I had to flush it every 4 hours. Back to the doctors at 8am Wednesday morning to be hooked up to fluids and antibiotics for another 5 hours and waiting for her to pee, and drink something. Came home again with the IV, mommy flushing it every 4 hours. Thursday, back at 8am. From all the fluids she developed pneumonia. Hooked back up with fluids and antibiotics. Dr. had a long talk with her about eating and drinking, and not being afraid to use the potty. She finally got the IV removed that afternoon, but would be going back to the doctors the next week for follow up appointments.
I was an extremely sleep deprived mommy. My mom and sister came up to help me out. Daddy took a day off of work, and I missed my other baby. It was nice having one on one time with Harly, I don't ever get alone time with them individually. I got a whole week. But I missed my Zoey so much.
Having to watch your child go through that and being a nurse and knowing what is going on sucks. It was the hardest thing in the world. I just wanted to hold her, protect her, comfort her. I wish she didn't have to go through what she went through, but she had too. It was the only way she could get better. If I could have done it at home and avoided the hospital and doctors I would have, but I couldn't.
Harly did awesome. I was so proud of her. She did everything she was suppose too and was the bravest little girl ever! She made me so proud.
Zoey got quality time with Titi, Nani, and Daddy. She was in great care. She got to do her favorite thing, SHOP! She is the shopping queen! She definitely was jealous and missed her mommy, but I spent much needed quality time with her that weekend!
One of the hardest days out of all this was Thursday. Everything caught up to Harly and she had a meltdown. Screaming and crying to where I could not get her to calm down. I carried her to her room, I sat down on the floor with her in my arms. She hit me and kicked me over and over for a good 5 minutes. I let her. I knew she needed to get her frustrations out. After 5 minutes she collapsed in my arms and I held her tight and cried with her. I can't imagine what her mind was going through, how she was processing it.
I wrote this post because I wanted you all to know that you know your own child. If you feel there is something off with them, if your gut is telling you this, don't sit back on it. Call the doctor. No question is a dumb question. When in doubt just call them, their nurse can answer your question and if it is serious they will get the doctor on the phone.
Working on a labor and delivery floor, you hear a ton of stories from the patients. Some good and some bad. It can be about anything, but the biggest one is financial hardships. Some are genuinely struggling, and some are taking advantage of the government.
Hearing these stories from the families who are trying their best to do things right, but are struggling is heartbreaking. It makes me reflect on how stable our home and finances are for our girls. I always try to help others and do my best to turn a negative into a positive.
We decided to start going through all the girls stuff. I was trying to find a good place to send it all and decided on donating some of it and selling some of it to Once upon a child.
We sold the girls infant beddings, high chairs, and some clothes to Once Upon a Child. We also donated some clothes to Goodwill. We plan on giving the infant car seats to someone in need (we have all the instructions and checked the expiration dates so it is safe). We also have two convertible cribs we plan on donating too.
It feels so good to know that I am helping families in need out. As the girls get older, I hope to set an example for them. Once the girls understand, we plan on having them donate some toys and clothes every so often and to teach them that there are some families in need (right now we do it for them).
If you have any clothes, toys, or equipment that people may be able to use; please don't toss it. Donate it to Goodwill or give it to someone. Please put yourselves in their shoes before throwing things away!
Also if you know anyone in need of cribs or infant car seats, please let me know!
In the end, all I want if for a child to experience happiness. To see them light up, just like my girls in this picture. Every child deserves this!