But... I carried the girls to almost full-term. I only gained about 50 lbs, but when you are carrying twins, your skin stretches. I was all belly, so it took a beating. I have met a couple of other twin mommies and are jealous of them because they don't have the extra skin. They don't have it though because they delivered their twins too early and had to deal with them being in the NICU. I would rather have extra skin then have my kids in the NICU, so I sympathize with them. With all this being said, I just want my abs back, the abs I have had for almost 10 years. I also don't want to be that mom yet. I am not ready for mom jeans, or a mini van (even though I know this vehicle is in my future), I am only in my mid/late 20's, I want to wear a bikini again. Then this photo changed everything.
Thank you Jennifer Garner! Here is the Link. Thank you for being the celebrity who is not worrying about getting back into shape after having a baby 4 months ago. Thank you for showing people that you can wear a one piece and still look cute! I guess I was so worried about society these days, you get judged just by walking in a store. It is not that I can't wear a bikini, I could and no one would really know about my belly, but I am so self- conscious about my body. Why? I don't know, maybe because my sister just had a baby and is already back in a bikini, but I have to remind myself that she only carried one child. I have always been fit, and then it changed when I had kids. Don't get me wrong, I would rather have my two blessings then my body! I hope all of you mommies out there can feel that way too. I also would rather spend every moment with my children, then at the gym, ( have I ever told you how much I hate the gym!) At some point I will start going back to my workout classes, but for now I will remember that I don't need to wear a bikini to fit in with society. I need to remember that my husband loves me for me, and that i will be chasing two, two year olds on the beach so I will stick with what is comfortable: a one piece, or tankini!
One more thing: The Honest company. I receive the parenting magazines, and a couple months ago there was an article about Jessica Alba. She started her own all natural baby and home products and its all made in America. I signed up for it, but they weren't selling things individually, you had to buy in bulk. At that time they were only selling diapers. I use cloth so I didn't buy anything. Well just recently the shop opened. I knew someone who tried her stuff and raved about it. So I decided to order some things. Mostly household cleaners, detergent, and sunscreen. I am very excited to try it. I have not gotten the stuff yet, but when I do, I will share with you! If you would like to check it out go to http://www.honest.com/ and sign up (its free to sign up!)
My promise: I promise to never talk about weight, or body image in front of my girls. Everyone's focus is on this. We as a society look at celebrities and wish we could be like them. The media jumps on them if they gained 5 lbs. I don't want my children to feel like they need to look a certain way to be accepted in this society. This also needs to change, because too many little girls are comparing themselves to celebrities at a very young age. Reality T.V. shows aren't helping this either. I want my children to feel beautiful in their skin, whatever body type they are. I want them to be happy and comfortable. I will have to teach them that there are not so nice people in this world who will try to bring other people down, but that they need to stay true to who they are and want to be. I promise to teach them to never judge somebody else, that everyone has their own situations and we don't know what it is. True beauty comes from the inside. It doesn't matter what you look like on the outside, as long as you are happy inside...that your heart is full of love!
|My goal! (this was taken a month before we got engaged!)|
|I got two gorgeous girls!|
|Our two blessings!|